"Doctor, you are going to have to do one or the other, unless you want me to remain in your office forever and you say, or at least infer, that it would take more than a few days to get me back to my former condition."

The doctor nodded his assent. "What you say is true. Moreover, although we are somewhat familiar with the feminizing effects of your hormone treatments, we honestly don't know how successful the reversal of the process would be, nor how long it would take. You would have to remain in the service for possibly two or three years until treatment could be completed and we don't know how successful it would be then. But this is not the solution that I have in mind for you."

"I have read the report of the Duval's, and they indicated that they felt, especially Madame Duval, that you were happier in your role as a woman and that you lived it to perfection and loved it. In reading your service record, I have learned that you have no family and some money left to you by your brothers insurance. I have now made a most critical evaluation of your appearance and as a result I am going to give you two choices which you must think over most carefully before giving me your answer."

Before the doctor gave her the two avenues open to her, she felt that she must tell him of her conflicting feelings about women-her desire to be a woman and yet her desire for women as women. She also informed him of her domestic skills and office training and expressed her anxiety in the new life ahead when she left the service. When she had completed her outpouring of wishes and fears, the doctor said to her, "The time of decision is now here and these are your two choices:'

"First, we can begin the defeminizing process at once and bear in mind that it might be lengthy and with no guarantee of success. In addi- tion you will have to remain in the service until treatment is terminated. Or... I can arrange to have you discharged under the name of Michele Duval but then you must release the army from further medical responsi- bility and your discharge can be arranged at once."

The doctor resumed, “It means that you will have to adjust to a life that is neither all male nor all female and you must play the role of a woman in all areas save one. There will be no going back once you have decided what you want to do. If you wish a few days to think it over, I will understand."

Although Michele did not answer for several minutes, both knew what her answer would be. Finally she said, “I would like to be dis-

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